As you can tell, I'm congenitally incapable of being very serious (and
no, not all the folks in Fort Collins stick out their tongues :-)
I laugh... a lot.
I remember that I've had an incredible 57 years doing a bazillion things
that most folks would be amazed at.
I make other people laugh... a lot.
I plan on being an 80 year old skier.
I ride my bike to work (which is easily as dangerous as having stage IV
cancer!).
I try to make a difference in my world every day.
I gave up a New Year's eve (First Night) to find out that my cancer is as
atypical as I am. I've not missed one since.
I remember that every minute I'm alive is an unbelievable gift (it helps
to have an overworked squad of angels hanging around).
I've been dying for nearly 58 years... and I'm getting better at it every
day... so I'm pretty relaxed about the whole thing.
Carcinoid is a gift that gives me cred' to support those in my world who
also face the beast.
When life is a pain in the butt (sando shots) I just pull up the pants
and get back on the bike.
I give my little 18 year-old rescued schipperke, Frostbite, scritches
under her chin knowing that she'll carry the love across the Rainbow Bridge.
Hellraising, as Mother Jones would put it.
Not accepting that good medical care is a privilege.
Hugging my partner... and receiving her hugs in return.
Actually believing that my letter to Congress has as much weight and way
more moral heft than dinner with Jack Abramoff.
Offering my decrepit body to science for clinical trials.
Biking to
Run for Hope and wearing purple proudly.
Believing that my oncologist is one of the best - and acting on that
belief.
Letting Rainbo, my schipperke, give me an ear washing (ok, that's pretty
hard to take much of).
God is crazy you know...
Anyone with a lick of sense can see that this world is a very painful
place. A place where staying curled up in the fetal position seems
like a reasonable response.
That's why uncurling so Love can be poured over my head is so absurd.
That's why struggling to my knees so I can give all that Love away is so
incomprehensible.
Wacko, I tell you... completely nuts...
It helps to laugh a lot
It helps to love even more.